Thursday, January 20, 2011
SIMON FARINAS (3/9/2000 - 1/20/2011)
I lost one of my babies today. I had to put Simon to sleep a little while ago and it just about broke my heart.
He had been sick with pulmonary hypertension for a while (see previous post ) but he had been okay. You know? Not great. But okay. Today I got home and he was so happy to see me. I was surprised at how much energy he had. I went to the store and took him with me.
A few minutes after I got home he literally fell over. He couldn't stand up and was dragging himself across the floor. I tried so hard to make him okay... I gave him oxygen (which I have been giving him for over a year) but this time he would not let me put his face in the mask. He always had. But tonight he just wouldn't.
He kept kissing me and kissing me and that in and of itself was a shock because Simon NEVER kissed (licked) anyone! He was too arrogant for that. He kept looking at me and kissing my face, licking the tears off my cheeks. I swear to God that little dog was saying goodbye to me. He didn't want the oxygen... he just wanted to go. He kissed me to let me know that he was okay with that. That he wanted to go.
I called my vet and he met me at his office. He agreed with me that it was time... I can't even tell you how I felt. I just can't.
The vet suggested I leave Simon with him and leave and I started to. But I came back inside and carried my little man. The vet gave him the shot and I just kept holding him. I kept telling him how sorry I was.. .that I HAVE to do this. That I love him so much. I know he understood me. It was so fast. Right before the last second he kissed me again and then just closed his eyes.
For those of you reading this and thinking he was just a dog... he was not. He was my baby and I love him dearly.
I will miss you Simon. I love you.
Posted by Elena at 8:32 PM