Friday, September 25, 2015
Another day of waiting
It is so sick - this whole death vigil. It tears you apart, it is horrific. We all just look at her.. Is her breathing worse? We raise our voice to her constantly trying to elicit a reaction, a response... Are you ok mom? Mom? Are you in pain mom? I love you Mom. Can you hear me mom??? MOM!!!
The desperation grows along with the fatigue, the anger, the circle under your eyes. You second guess every decision we have made. Should we make them insert a feeding tube? Are we starving her to death? Did we give up too soon? Isnt her color better today???
My daughter feeds her juice and high vitamin milk so she doesnt "starve".... This is all too much!!!
I have put numerous dogs down when they have been dying and in pain. We dont sit around and watch them die! Why do we have to do this over and over again with the people we love?!
Posted by Elena at 10:53 AM