Not a good day

I am probably one of the most positive people you could ever meet in your life.  I have been through a lot of things and always manage to find that elusive silver lining.

But today is not a good day.  For the first time in my entire life, I am feeling defeated.   I hate feeling like this.  It is not who I am.  It is certainly not who I want to be.  

So I will give myself a few more hours of feeling like this and get up off my ass.  There may be things that will be inevitable.   There may be things that will ultimately be more than what I believe I can handle.   But I will have faith that somehow I will get through whatever comes my way.   I will believe that whatever happens it's God's plan.

But for now, for the next couple of hours, I will indulge in some sadness and self-pity.  Why not?   Despite what everyone else seems to believe, I am human too.  I can't always be "strong".  I should not have to be.