I Have Lost My Bubbles

This picture shows 5 out my 7 babies.  Three of them are gone and one is dying of old age.  They were all contemporaries so I guess it's to be expected but it's broken my heart.

BUBBLES FARINAS

Sept 8, 1997 - June 29, 2011

This was my Bubbles.  I love all my dogs, always have, but Bubbles was MINE.  She was my baby.  The one that I totally and completely adored.  This little dog could almost speak.  I swear she could.  She adored me.  I lost her while I was in the hospital.   She died of a heart attack and I was not there for her.  She had been on medication and I don't know if it wasn't given to her the right way or... I just don't know.  I DO know that I failed her.  She would have been 14 in September.

This is Cindy.  She will be 16 in January.  She has had seizures recently and I will be having to make a decision about her soon - she is getting weaker every day.

This was Simon Blu.  My little man.  He died in April at the age of 14.

Candy died last year.  She was 13 and such a fantastic little dog.

I have Cindy and three of my yorkies left.  I don't regret having had and loved them but their loss is painful.


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Quote for the Day

"You are, after all, what you think. Your emotions are the slave to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions."
- Eat, Pray, Love


After having it sitting on my Kindle for months and months, I finally read Eat, Pray, Love.

This womans act of defiance in finding happiness for herself without giving a damn what anyone thought (an act of defiance reached after much mental anguish) makes her my hero for the day.

You all can tsk-tsk all you want but I would dare to bet that at least 80% of you, if you are truly honest, would give anything to take a year sabaticle from your lives. Would LOVE to have one year where you could go by yourself where ever you want. DO whatever you want. Not have to answer to anyone or worry about anyone.

I have a friend who is totally into meditation and Yoga. As she explains it to me, Yoga is more than those exercises that turn you into pretzels; its a meditative lifestyle.

I have become quite interested in Yoga and especially the exercise of meditation.

I dont believe I can meditate. The kind of stillness of the mind that is required to meditate is not something I can fathom doing. My mind goes a million miles a minute at all times. Awake or asleep.

From what I understand, the idea behind true meditation is to relieve your mind from dwelling on the past or worrying about the future. To create a stillness that lets you be - for that space of time - only in the present. This state allows you to actually listen to God as opposed to you praying to or talking to Him. I would love to live in that moment of total mental cleanliness... Just really cant imagine reaching it. That "zen" moment

But I can tell you that the closest I come to that place is when I am creating art. Whether I am doing something complicated and intense or when I am simply painting pages on my journal, I am as close to a zen state as I have ever gotten.




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STILL HERE

Did you guys ever see Kristey Alleys "unveil" on Oprah? Gotta tell you it was not a pretty sight. It showed true courage and a large set of iron ones.

This is what I look like today




Between the IV, the heart monitor and this face that looks like someone beat me up minus the bruises... Who has the biggest iron ones huh?

Gotta bring some levity to my morning along with the totally DISGUSTING breakfast (these people take diabetis really SERIOUSLY around here!) and the fact that I have slept two hours.

Yesterday I really appreciated just laying in a bed - not being able to breath was exhausting me. I was sick for about two weeks before finally coming here so I needed to rest. But I am done and ready to go and these people are not feeling me on this.

So what are you guys doing on this Sunday morning that God gave us TO SPEND IN OUR ART STUDIOS?




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NOT FUN

In Mariners Hospital with pneumonia. Not fun.

Hooked up to heart monitor, IV, oxygen.... Uggh!

Where is the lyposunction machine while I am here?!?




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THE OTHER SIDE OF TIM!!!!

Saw this video on his blog and couldn't help putting it on here!!!  How CUTE is he????

QUOTE FOR THE DAY

"A man can become so accustomed to the thought of his own faults that he will begin to cherish them as charming little "personal characteristics".     Helen Rowland

This quote really irks me.  This is the rationale behind people who say "Oh, that is just the way he/she is" in order to justify crappy behavior.

Well guess what?  It's NOT okay.  Whether or not you want to justify it by saying "that's just the way he/she is", it's still crappy behavior.

Instead of letting them think that these faults are "little quirks" - call them out on them.  Tell them that it's not OK.

SOUL RESTORATION 2

I have been meaning to write about this class for weeks now.  The class is SOUL RESTORATION 2 by The Brave Girls Club (Melody Ross).  I have never been so impressed or moved or motivated by anything as by this class.

I am not sure if it's "the turning 50 thing" everyone talks about or if it's just that I've reached a crossroad in my life where I NEED to make some changes, but this class is just amazing.  I will be taking Soul Restoration 1 when this is over (starts in July) since you don't have to take them in order.

I am doing the class with my friends Jacquie and Tracy.  We skype (all three at one time!! How cool is that?) every Wednesday evening to discuss the previous weeks' class.  We share our thoughts on this class (and it is amazingly thought provoking) and our art journals.  Not only is it an amazing class to take on your own, but having a close friend to share these intimate prompts with just makes it so much better.

The class is a little pricy ($99) but it is worth every single dollar.  If you are unhappy with your life (or you can use "discontent" if that makes you feel less guilty); if you feel that you want a "different" life for yourself; if as a woman you are feeling unfulfilled and that there is just "something missing" - take this class.  Scrimp and save for the $99 if you have to.  But take it.  You will not regret it.