we brought my dad home from the hospital to die. I went back to read the posts and all the wonderful messages I received during this time last year and once again feel humbled by so many wonderful friends.
I miss my dad. I miss him so damned much. Today is one of those days I'd like to crawl into a corner and just cry from the frustration and impotence I STILL feel over losing him.
Every day I want to pick up a phone and call him. Tell him about some crazy client, chit chat about this or that. And I can't. I have never heard his voice again and I miss that. Doesn't that sound crazy?
His wife has tons and tons of videos at her house. I still have not been able to see one. Soon. I will. I really really just want to hear him say "que paso mija"? Three little words out of the mouth of a man who has left such a huge whole in my heart.
I love you dad. I love you so much. You have no idea how much you are missed.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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I love you Elena
ReplyDeleteyou have wonderful memories
but i feel your pain
my heart breaks for you sweety
one day you will be able to watch those videos.
xxLill
Lillian Mederak.
http://www.canadianscraptramp.blogspot.com/
Hello Elena,
ReplyDeleteyour dad was a lucky man to be loved so much !
It's a difficult period to loose a loved one. Celebrations seems to be more difficult.
Time will heal, but I know that takes sometimes a looong time...Cherish the moments and memories you have and DO watch the videos. Of course you will cry, but it brings him a little bit back when you can see him move, can hear him talk,..
strenght and greetings from Belgium
Inge
Your dad was such a great guy! I still remember our trip. How much he enjoyed spending the time with you and Kristina. He will never be forgotten - you have an angel in heaven watching over you. Love you, Lilly
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