Once again time just flies past me

This has been the most horrible year of my entire life.  Charlie passed away on January 12, 2017.  Drugs of course.  He had so many drugs in such huge amounts in his system they couldn't even tell what actually killed him.

We were talking at 3:30 in the morning.  He looked like he was really out of it and I begged him to stop.   He said he was going to eat something and then go to sleep.  "I love you Charlie"  "I love you Ma."  At  8 am when I woke up and forced the bathroom door open my son was dead.  I still can't believe it.  I don't even know how to write this without it sounding like a work of fiction.

It's been 4 months and nothing is easier, the pain does not let up.  Sometimes, in my days of less sanity, I convince myself he is in rehab and will be back.  The on clearer days I know I will never see him again and I want to die.

How can anything in my life even matter after this?

Memorial Day Weekend

Carlitos, Jose Carlos and the rest of the clan were here for a week.  They left the Sunday before Memorial Day.  Kristina, Derrick and girls came over late on Sunday but we went out on the boat on Memorial Day and had a really good day!

Donald Trump becomes our 45th President

As I sit here and watch Hillary Clinton give her concession speech I am humbled by the class this woman shows.  By her love and dedication to this country.

I fear for our country. I am fearful of what Trump is - what he will do.  This country has worked so hard to reach more equality - to accept everyone.  He has divided this country.  He has created hate and dissention.  He accomplished this just campaigning.  What will he do as president?

Today is a very very sad day for this wonderdul country.  Sadly, so many dont even realize it.

ALMOST A FULL YEAR

has gone by since my last post.  Inhave no idea where the time has gone nor why I have abandoned my blog except that after my mom's death I really did not feel like documenting anything any more.  Silly really because now I have to go back two years and document my family's life (I did not make a family yearbook for 2015). It means too much to me to just do nothing.

So...  I will be back!

A Christmas Scrapbook for Teri

This is last year's Christmas project by KATHY KING.  I did it as a gift for my friend Teri so that she can finally start scrapping pictures of her beautiful grand children!!!

Kathy's Christmas project for this year is next on my list!!!

Hope you enjoy the video!

Happy December!!!

Today I start my 2015 December Daily.  I totally love this project.  It is my absolute favorite of the entire year.  December used to be my favorite time of year.  Living in Key Largo you would not think so - it's still in the 80's here - it's not like we get a change of season or anything.  My dad died on December 28th after a short but awful fight with cancer.  I have never enjoyed December since then but I really WANT to.  Know what I mean? I really want to go back to where since mid-November I was excited and looking forward to decorating, to cooking, to creating.  I miss that feeling of wrapping up the year.

This year it's sad because it's only been 2 months since I lost my mother but I am determined to find joy in every day.  I will see her again.  It's just a matter of time.

So today I will work on my 1st day of December and will post it tomorrow.

What about you?  How are you commemorating this December?

December Daily 2015: Foundation Pages

As promised, here is a video of my December Daily 2015 foundation pages:

Hope you enjoy it!!  I LOVE this project!!!